Sunday Morning Randomness

I wake up early. Watch some TV...KCET has a guy talking about savings, asset building and IRAs. It reminds me that I recently opened an IRA account, told the guy I would send him the money and yet, have not done it. As if finally making the payment will actually mean that I have grown up and take serious responsibility about a distant future. And of course, part of me resists the idea of growing up anyway. So I keep holding on to the payment.

Another channel is the Chris Matthew show. A bunch of idiots rattle on about the Hillary/Obama fiasco and offer their dumb opinions. Even Chris's voice brings down my energy. Wayne Dyer talks about how one must not get involved in politics or listen to political shows because all it does is create division and separation in a universe that is nothing but whole. Wayne is right but it is very hard to practice what he says especially if you are a divorce lawyer.

They also show clips of Bill Clinton on the campaign trail, backing up Hillary. His hair is all white and although he has kept his charm, you can totally see how much he has aged since 1992 when he first appeared in the public eye. Before OJ Simpson, and Monica Lewinsky and his two heart attacks and Bin Laden and 911, Afghanistan and Iraq and the mess that GWB created. (yes i refuse to say his unholy name) It seems like life times ago.

Wow. That was 16 years ago. I was still in high school. I was still naive and idealistic.

Being idealistic and young...just like the file clerk that I interviewed on Friday and in response to "Why you wanna go to law school?", she says "because I want to help people". I laughed inside but I think I am gonna hire her anyway. Maybe her youth and idealism will bring fresh air to the office? Maybe.

And today is a very important day. The premier of the second play which brings me some hope because it might be the end of a cycle for me. His last play started on the weekend after I got news that I failed the bar the first time around. Echheart Tolle talks about Cycles and how necessary they are for life sustenance...the whole This-Too-Will-End bullshit. But it's true as long as you believe it (isn't that ironic?). So today, I decide to believe that a cycle that began that weekend in Nov. 2004 will end for me, which brought the idea and the feeling that I am nothing but a failure because I didn't pass the damn exam on the first try, consequently affecting my practice as a lawyer. This is it. Today we are ending this cycle.

With that being said and decided, I should go do something productive on this Sunday before we hit the road. Or maybe not.