size 8

I feel like that movie with Robert De Niro...Awakenings or something like that or better yet, Flowers for Algernon? about the mentally impaired guy who became normal for a while and then woooops, it was gone.

Lost lots of it for a while and everything was happy dandy, Felt Good, went from 8 to 4 or maybe even 2 by end of January 06. Thought to myself, thank God I didn't throw those jeans away.

And then....once again, it's back in its place. And this cycle has been going on and on and on since I was 13? So Sista Opera, yes, I relate.

The only good thing is that now I know the game, and i know I can lose it whenever I feel like it...I know all about internal power and self-determination and EFFICACY. Yup. I don't feel as if it's beyond me.

So I am sure I will go back to 4 or even 2 sometime soon...whenever I feel like it.