"i m sorry"

Sometimes I wonder if they'll ever forgive me for not taking care of them, for not supporting them, although they took care of me and supported me when I needed it, when I was helpless.

I suppose this is an issue that I should really work on now and try to resolve while I still have them around instead of waiting till they are gone,and ending up spending an astronomical amount of money in therapy, telling a stranger about my feelings.

I am sure it was never even an issue with them.
I am sure if I ever ask for forgiveness, they will laugh and say, for what?
I am sure it's all in my head...but it is what it is...even if it is in my head; it's there.