She knew...

Wednesday, December 28, 2005:

Could not sleep all night, finally got out of bed around 6 a.m. when it was pitch dark, got dressed, and left AH while it was still dark...91 W, 605 N, 105 W, 405 S...the whole thing took 40 mins. Got to work around 7:30 a.m.---the earliest I had ever gone to work.

She fired me around 9:30 a.m. She said I can stay till Friday but I wanted to get out of there, wanted to run. So I cleaned up and left but 3:30 p.m...Was wearing my red coat. Just drove south on 405, didn't want to go back to my apartment, ever. I had no other reason to be there. Drove and drove and drove...got to her apartment...maybe I was crying...maybe just numb. Her place was so warm, so cozy...with the fireplace on...we talked, we planned, we focused, I made some phone calls. Then I went Home and told them I am moving back in. Didn't say why, just told Him to get the U-Haul for next week...I could see they were shocked, inquisitive... but I gave no room for discussion.

Thursday, December 29, 2005:

Woke up at 8:30 a.m. I think i had tea with them and then went upstairs and sent about 25 resumes.

11:30 a.m. She e-mailed me to come in for interview on Friday.

2:00 p.m. Drove to LA for an appointment at CGI with Ruth.

3:30 p.m. I told her about the red wall in the apartment and how my couch was now facing the opposite direction and that's why it was time for me to leave.

5:30 p.m. Went and got my nails done for the last time on Robertson Blvd.

7:45 p.m. Colored my hair for the last time in my pink bathroom.

Friday December 30, 2005:

Drove on 10 E to 5 S to 17th Street. Discovered two things I liked about the location: LA Fitness and Starbucks.

11:00 a.m. Interview with LJM.

9:00 p.m. D and D's 50th wedding anniversary on a boat in Marina del Rey.

Wednesday January 4, 2006:

10: 00 a.m. He brought the U-Hall and we were out of there. Boom.

7:30 p.m. LJM had left a msg and offered me the job.

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And this is why the first time she saw me, she could see it right through me...that i had some major built-in survival skills...she didn't even know the whole story...the fact that I was fired on Wed and by Thursday night, I had my nails and hair done, ready for another job interview...she didn't have to know that to see that I had it all very strongly built-in...very deeply, somewhere down to my core being...Down to the cellular level.

She knew...

But this is the first time I have told this story.